Sept 5, 2023

Im trying to relax my self. Pinipilit kong wag masaktan sa lahat ng mga nangyayare saken. I'm looking forward for tomorrow for my 3rd shot and if I will get relief from it. Been reading on the website of Consentyx/Scapho and they mentioned that it could work for as early as 3 weeks, meaning on th 3rd loading dose. Ok, let's see how it goes. Been praying everyday na mag mag bigay ng sign and hope na mag wowork saken tong gamot na to. 

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